confused..

today is my birthday
but i didn't feel anything
juz..sorrow inside, laughter outside
there is sumthing missing
but i don't know what it is
suddenly i felt like i have no one
shit!! i hate this feeling
it make me feels like i'm useless..
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7 years in love
i tot he is truly understand me
but i woz wrong..
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feel so sad actually =(

er, keta akak maner ek??

slm n hi..


em, arie sabtu arie 2 kan..(bpr byk arie ntah nk letak..) k.rini ader jemputan kwn die tunang..maklang plak nk gie umah kwn lame die..cik yah name nyer..so, aku amik keputusan untuk ikut maklang..lepak kt umah cik yah..hehe..tp sblm kiotrg gie..ader tragedi yg berlaku..
disebabkan umah maklang aku tuh umah flat..so, kitorang kena naik turun lif..tingkat 11 weh..x larat nk nek tangga..kalo terjun bleh la..
huhu..kitorang pon gie la basement n menuju k e tempat k.rini slalu parking kete die..cari nyer cari..kete die xder plak..jenuh kitorang pusing..tp xder..hah!!parah btol!!kete hilang ker? tbe2 k.rini tersengih sambil berkata.."er, akak lpe la yg akak park kt stesen lrt uni..lpe plak nk amik smlm.." aku pon per lg..tergelak2 kt situ gak..k.rini nie bwat lawak la..hahaha..maklang dh bwat muke geram..kiki..x pasal2 kitorg kena jln kaki gie tgu taxi plak..huhu..

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yesterday..kitorg gie sogo n jln TAR..Hah!kat sogo skang tgh sales!! kalo ader duit..ops! byk duit..mmg heaven..meleleh air liur blr tgk handbag2 smlm..tp aku xder duit..wawawa..so, dpt pgg pon jadik la..em, pas k.rini dh dpt die nyer purse..kitorg gie jln TAR plak..pergh..
rambang mata tgk..serius weh..saper2 yg t'ign nk menghabis kan duit..tolong la gie sogo n jln TAR.. =p

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i dah terpikat ngan baju kebaya.. adoi!!


mwamwa*wink*

Nigeria??

hi there,


em, long2 time ago.. when i woz 15 years old..nurfazatulakmal (my full name) known as a active gal in my skool..every evening i've got 2 sessions of sports practice..hockey n bola baling..(i'm very dark) 1st, i'm join the bola baling session..3.30pm-5.30pm then continue with the hockey session 5.45 pm-7.00pm..Fuh..i'm also didn't understand where i got the stamina..haha..somebody has told me..if u are really2 enjoy doing sumthing..then u will never feel tired doing it..n it's 100% correct!! i do luv the sports..

at dat time, there is FIFA 2002..n one day, i woz called by my hockey's coach to take the jersey..because i've got match dat weekend..so, i've asked Cikgu Jasmi(he teach us geography) for his permission since i'm the only 1 the hockey player in my class..(we can't go out juz like dat) after i've got the jersey, i went back to the class, n at the moment i'm entered the class's door, Cikgu Jasmi said "ok, ini dia pemain Nigeria kita..berjersi kuning.." i'm speechless n took a sight at the yellow jersey on my shoulder with num 8 if i'm not mistaken.. huhu..but the phrase dat come from his mouth.. Damn it!! nigeria?? ahah!!all my classmate woz happily laughed at me..yeah..very funny instead..HAHAHA..i'm juz walk in fast speed n sit down at my place..he got FIFA fever!! n do the most stupid joke..on ME!! then there is more joke 'bout me..but i don't want to listen it..i'm in my own world at the moment the suck thing happened..blablabla..suddenly i've heard their not laugh any more n i asked fadzilah..(she is beside me) "dah abis ker blum?" then she said " dah.." good!it's over..but!! all my classmate woz shitt on me about dat thing for the whole week!! especially the evil boys in my class..


Cikgu Jasmi luv to make stupid joke..especially bab2 ngutuk org nih..pergh..i'm 1 of the ' Anti- Cikgu Jasmi club'..sori cikgu..saper sruh ske ngutuk org..kn dh ader yg tubuh'n club haram tuh..(am i the president??x tau..) n seems i hate him, i also hate geog..oh no..1 more, org ckp kn..x bek kalo bnci ckgu..nnti dpt balasan..but i don't care 'bout it..perasaan tuh semakin menjadi2..pengikut club pon makin ramai..err, did i mentioned u dat i'm the president??juz forget it oke..kiki..em, at the middle of Feb..i've got all the monthly test result..blr dpt ppr geog..teka aku dpt per?aku dpt D beb!!! seumur idop, tuh la satu2 nyer ak dpt D..per lg, melalak2 ak kt dlm stdy room, atas katil..sedih glr..pdn muke aku! sape suruh nyampah kt ckgu..kn dah kena! wakenabeb!! adoi..selepas kejadian, aku btol2 insaf..n start menanam raser2 suke pd cikgu jasmi n raser cinta pd geog..even die cm tuh..aku kene redo..(redha) nk bwt cm ner..bek burok pon, cikgu aku gak kn..then, alhamdulillah..ive got A for geog in my PMR..so, the conclusion is..if the devil whisper to u n make u feel bad 'bout ur teacher/lect..plz do ignore it..no matter how bad they are..they still the one who teach us..


oke, the story of today..while i'm walking in the recration park dis morning..something unexpected woz happened..Guess wat??ok i'll tell u the details..em, tgh ak asyik menikmati udara pagi yg nyaman..sambil mencuci mata melihat org tgh b'senam..tbe2 aku terpandang sorang pakcik dlm linkungan 40-an bersenam x jauh dri tmpat aku berjalan..sampai jea kt dpn die..die ckp sumthing ngan aku..tp aku bwat don't know jea..coz cara die ckp tuh menakutkan..aku pon jln jea la..nak dijadikan citer, die berlari n berhenti kat dpn aku..dlm hati aku, per hal plak ngan org tua nih..buangtabiat gamak nyer..aku pegang erat2 payung aku tuh..hah!x lpe gak ngan plastik yg ader bihun goreng yg aku bli kt stesen tmn paramount td..huhu..pas2, berlaku la dialog seperti di bwh..

pakcik giler: keje ker?

aku: a'ah

pakcik giler: keje kat maner?

aku: kat jln 227

pakcik giler: umah kat maner? ulang-alik la?


aku x jwb soalan2 die n x berhenti berjalan pon..tp pakcik nie still ikut aku..mase tuh bdn aku dah berpeluh sbb takut..tbe2, pakcik giler nie pandang tempat sekeliling n berhenti..aku pon jln cpt2..raser cm nk lari pon ader gak..tiap2 5 langkah aku toleh ke belakang..tgk kalo2 pakcik giler tuh ader lg..nsb bek die xder..kalo die still ikut aku..aku dah plan nk menjerit sambil berlari..die x tau lg cm ner aku jerit..mau pekak telinga die..tp sumpah aku takut..aku bersyukur sgt coz tmn tuh ramai org..kalo x, susah gak aku..nk kata glr, nmpk cm org normal..maner x nyer, pakai bju sukan cm org len..tgh b'senam plak tuh..tp yg comfirm nyer, pkcik nie psycho..n muka die mse die b'ckp, mmg seram oke..ckp smbil besar kan mata..korang byg cm ner..bleh byg x? huhu..aku ctr ngan sharen psl bnde nih..die plak ngadu kt mama die..haha..then, mkcik sabariah ponpesan sruh bwk spray mse jln kaki sorang2..spray per? ala..spray cili tuh..syg gak makcik sabariah kt aku..kiki..opss! terdedix plak..






mwamwa *wink*

love story..

hey ya!!



lovelovelove..em, i do love my BF so much..his name is mohamed shahreen b mohamed azmi..Auww..so, our love story begin in 2001..7 years ago..haha..sumtimes i didn't realize dat we have been hand in hand for 7 years!!!gosh..he said, if we are married..we do have a 7 years old kid..then i told him.."xkan la kiter nk kawen time umor 14 thn??"hahaha..well, so much stories between us..n FYI, of coz he did proposed me to be his gal..we had officially declared as couple on 20 Aug 2001..ahaks!at dat time we were in f2..em, i have sumthing to tell u..err..actually i'm lil' bit tomboy in my early secondry skool..haha..n i have no idea how come he got fell in luv with me..weird babe!!in early 2001, he woz started 'usha' me..but in dat time..i'm not interested with dat kind of things..well, tomboy la kate kn..kiki..ahah!!1 of my classmate..she is truely, deeply, madly in luv with him..flashback when we were in f1..dat gal had gave him a luv letter..ewww..but unfortunately, he had throw it to our guyz in the classroom..then the letter turn out into the ball..gosh..wat a shame!!thank God dat it's not from me..kiki..ok, back to 2001..after all kind of 'usha' he had performed..bg coklat la..present la..many more..on the evening of 20 Aug..1 of my friend told me dat he want to see me at our class..(i'm stayed in hostel) at 1st, i'm protested it..but my friend really2 want me to see him..is she over excited??i don't know 'bout dat..when i'm arrived at the class..i saw him..suddenly..lub dup..lub dup..my heart felt like wanna jump out!!kiki..we juz standing in front of each other..seperated by..er, 2 skool desks i think..then, he said "saye suka kt awk"..at the moment..honestly i'm really2 shocked!!suddenly the phrases has changed..(saye/awk??) i don't know wat to say..accidentally my mouth opened and said "saye pun suka kt awk.." ewww..dat's how we declared..hahaha..


afterall, our parents already know about us..i met his parents when we were 16 years old..actually, i don't wanna see them..honestly.. b'coz i'm afraid..yela, i'm only 16 years old!!then, 1 day he got accident when played football (he is our skool's footballer n many gals like him..wek!!)he got leg prob n got mc for 3 days..all my friend told me to go to his house..melawat la konon..but i don't want..then, they pushed me to..at last, me n syaza (1 of my BFF) went to his house..pergh..Only God knows how nervous i am at dat time..haha..


actually, there are more stories between us..but i want to tell u about yesterday..


hah!!!let me story dis in bm..more feeling i think..kiki..well, mse ak tgh berjalan nek tangga kat stesen lrt uni tuh..aku rser cm dgr bnyi tren smpi..pas2 aku pon cpt2 la nek tangga..smpi jea kt platform..aku pon trus meluru masuk dlm tren..x parasan plak bnyi "ting2"..ala..bnyi yg slalu ader mse pintu tren nk tutup tuh..lg selangkah aku nk msuk..pintu tren pon nk tutup..nsb bek bdn ak nie kcik..smpt la menyelit kt pintu tuh..tp ader 1 adegan yg x bleh dimaap kan berlaku..secara x sengaje nyer, aku termelatah kt dlm tren tuh!!!1 gerabak dgr..sumpah aku malu..malu siott..pas2 nk thn malu nyer pasal..aku tersengih cam kerang yg x berape nk bsuk kat stu gak..sume org terkejut..pintu 2 pon siap terbukak balik..aku x tau la, diorg terkejut sbb aku melatah atau takut aku tersepit..lbh kurang 3 saat..aku pon dgn slumber pegi kat tiang yg 2-3 langkah dri tmpat aku berdiri..yg x bleh blah nyer, aku pakai bju kurung!!!adush!!dah la paki bju kurung, bwat plak aksi stunt cm tuh..patut la nk terbeliak bjik mata diorg tgk aku..tp serius aku x bleh byg cm ner la kalo aku tersepit kat stu..mau menjerit sakan ala2 tarzan aku gamak nyer..baru melompat sume org..hahaha..


err, till then..mwamwa *wink*

p/s - plz do careful with the train's door..peristiwa semalam..sgt HORROR!!

retirement..

hi there..

em, talking 'bout retirement..i'm retire from being Vice President I, Student Representative Council in my uni last Oct..(usually known as NYDPI MPP UniMAP) MPP means Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar..in my own version, Majlis Pelajar Ponteng..hahaha.. being a leader is not as easy as u think..it's impossible to fulfill everybody's desire.. haha..well, at the 1st time..i also thought dat it's not too difficult to handle it..(seems i've got some experience as a hostel's president when i woz f4)but..in uni, all is different..we'll never know wat gonna happen..but for me, professional is important..very2 important..ahah!there is no holiday in our diary..in semester break, only us who are still remain in the hostel..kiki..thank God we have our own place..(to gathering)it's the place for us to meeting, eat, playing(saidina, sahiba, scrabble, carrom), work of coz..sometimes cooking..(i'm borrow a rice cooker from my hozemate) there are so much fun actually, even we are stuck in the Wang Ulu..(the name of village of our residential college located)

UniMAP's SRC 2007/2008

last Aug, we had organized the 'Pesta Konvokesyen Ke-3 UniMAP'..as a Deputy President I, i'm responsible on promotion, activities (total activity is 13..fuh!!), transportation, catering (food)..the whole week, which is started from 12-16 Aug 2008..the big event woz held..but, act from the end of July, there woz 'Pra Konvo'..seems i woz handle the promotion, it is also part of my job..honestly, i'm exhausted within dat time..really tired..but i'm enjoy doing it =p


there are so much experiences being a MPP..i knew how to communicate with the others properly..handling matters in fastest way..know how to co-operate with people who are highly position..get more frenz..(we have MPPs gathering from all M'sia) all these are bonus for me..but people luv to judge books by it's cover..they thought MPP are useless..FYI, last Feb..there is a meeting between MPPs n TPM, Dato' Seri Najib Abd Razak..1 of our resolutions is 'bout the PTPTN..at last, we had managed to reduce the % of the 'bunga' from 3% to 1.5%..n now the % seems reducing to 1%..it's nice to hear isn't it?kiki..


em, watever it is..i'm happy with my retirement..which mean i will get my old life back..haha..can go to the class like the normal student..Once, i remember..1 of the guy in my class has told me..(er, honestly..i don't know his name) "hi faza, dtg klas ari nih?"..can u see??He is shitting on me..but, i'm juz replied.."a'ah"..so wat if i'm not attend the class..i didn't bother to borrow his note anyway..but it shows dat, my classmate do realized dat i'm always not attend the class..still, i don't care 'bout it..i do have my job..n i know wat i'm doing.. =p


gosh..miss him badly!!


time to go..*wink*

my 1st ever..

yay!!

my 1st post ever..(i'm shame to admit it act..kiki..)well, i'm in office rite now..pretending like i have sumthing to do..(obviously, they can see me write a post to my blog..watever!!)ahah!!being an intern..i mean as a beginner.. so bored..rite now, i juz need to monitor the server..every 2 hours till 6 p.m..(but i'm check it every 30 mins!! b'coz too bored..)well, learning java need passion..so, i'm trying my best..although it's make me sick..*sigh*..


btw, seems dis is my 1st post..here is some intro 'bout me..now i'm work as a trainee programmer in pj..(God, plz help me go through dis 5 months ++)permanently, i live with my maklang at desa aman pdrm 1, pantai dalam, kl.. the most interesting is..every weekdays, i need to get up 6.30 a.m..after finish all buss.(pray, bath, iron clothes, breakfast)i'm go down to the bus stop..waiting for a bus to university lrt station..then, from uni station..go to tmn paramount..and fyi, i need to walk 'bout 20 mins ++ to the office..which i need to go through a tmn aman's recreation park..(there are many people exercise..including me..but i'm lil' bit different, b'coz i'm wearing the slack and shirt..instead of wearing track suite n t-shirt like the others)go through s.m.k (p) sri aman and a roundabout..to go back, same pathway..hahah..only 1 thing in my mind..i'll become 'KURUSS!!'although i'm 43 kg rite now..it's all 'bout sacrifice..


honestly, i'm broke rite now..need to watch my money..(come on PTPTN..hurry up!!)thank God dat i've got the allowance here..but, nowadays..duit mcm air..huhu..and i've got my own mission..the DELL inspiron laptop..
3rd year student of universiti malaysia perlis does not have a laptop??believe it guyz..it's hard to live with the money from PTPTN only..(since my lately atok woz gone, last year..)but hey!!nothing impossible..all i need is +ve thinking..and dat's wat i'm approach to..

till then..